ya allah

sakitnye kepala...
byk nye benda dlm kepala skang nie...

psl program waktu cuti..
pasal nak byr laptop..
pasal itu la..
ini la..

skang nie yg penting kne jage hati..
bukan hati org lain je..
tp hati sendiri supaya x tersasr...

x tersasar dr jalan yg sepatutnye..
kenapa agknye perlu ada perasaan cemburu tu dlm diri manusia?
supaya wujud nya 1 persaingan sihat utk melakukan yg lebih baik di masa hadapan..
tp,,,,,

it does not apply to all things in this world right..
ssah la nak ckp...
if i confess what i am feeling now,
it would not and will never be right..

i really need a time out right now..
mayb a dy out with my close pals..
but it's kinda impossible because i'm busy right now...

apa yg saya tulis pada hari nie serupa mcm driver who drive recklessly on the road..
ignoring the rules and logic...

.....

a new start..

hey..
it's been a long time since i write in here..
so,
for update :
1. already finish my foundation
2. already get the result
3. my result is quite disappointing
4. i'm working as teacher right now
5. met new people in new place

so, as for the result...
it is really a heartbreaking day when i heard about my result..
since the day the result was out my office's internet connection is a bit ting tong,
i ask my friend to look t uo for me..
and it turned out to be not so awesome...

the second i heard my friend told me my pointer,
i cried..
i cried so hard that my eyes start to get puffy..
my friend who's in the phone is also feeling guilty coz she thought it is not a good idea for her to look up my result..

now, i can accept the fact that my result is not that good and start to fnd the alternative if and only if i'm not accepted to any govr. uni..
luckily, a few good thinhgs happen to me when i start working...
i gain tonnes of experience from here...
and i feel lucky to be here..

i also get to met a few people who i respect for their hardwork and effort even though they still young...
and i figure out the difference of going out with guys of same age and of older age..
hehe

till then...

jealousy overboard..

eotteoke??????

when i blurt it out..

it always happened to me...
i always speaks without even think about it first..especially when i'm upset..i really hate people asking me the same questions over and over again when i'm upset and i tend to speaks to them in annoying tone...
when i did it,i thought i'll feel happy afterwards because i can express my feeling,but the opposite things will happen...

instead of the 'happiness' i thought i'll feel,i actually regretting it...but it quite hard to avoid it since it happens without me realizing it...
after i blurt anything annoying to anyone,then,i realize that i might hurt somebody's feeling...

this may happen to any people that you think annoys you the most..
whether they are bossy,noisy or even bitchy....they may be not realize they have hurt somebody's feeling until they actually did it..get what i mean?

and what makes them so hard to say sorry when they already knows they're guilty?
well,it may be they're ego or they feel too embarrased to say sorry...
saying sorry is after all the hardest word to say...

so,to those who feels like you are in the same boat as me,learn to say sorry when you have done anything wrong..
you may not have the courage to start it,but when you already do it,there's this one content feeling you'll get..
believe me...
and your relationship with people around you will improve more...

:)

till then!

test,test,test,

it's 3.21 am in the morning and i still up!!!!

hemmm....i wouldn't do so if this noon i don't have any test...

clearly,the fact that i haven't study tonnes enough to step into the exam hall and i need to force my eyelid to stay in right position...force here means paksa not as in 'force' in physic where you need to times electron charges with velocity,magnetic field and sin o..

haha...i'm gaga over physics right now...
and thanks to the great songs written by a korean group who started their career in japan's underground music scene.....
the group's name is cn blue...you guys should really check them out...
their upbeat songs has help me to stay awake.....

and here are their pics...

my fav member is jung yong hwa...3rd from left...

he's the lead singer and plays guitar also...

owh,and this band is actually different from other typical korean group because they play the instruments and didn't dance...

and why the heck i'm babbling about a boy band when i have test 9 hours from now?

hahaha...i also didn't know why...

wish me luck!

:)

of korea & toilet

last saturday i was at home,so this is basically what happened..

It’s 2.47 am

I’m watching a Korean reality show called we got married,goguma...
it's about a celebrity couple got "married",but not in real life.....

So,I’m writing this after going to toilet(accompanied by my father)…

I know I’m 19 but still I need my father to accompany me because…………… 

my toilet is outside..........

i live in a kampong or in English, suburb,so,it’s quite normal to have toilet outside the house…

another reason I wake my dad up is because the shrieking sound coming from my neighbour’s lambs…it’s kinda freaky to hear their sound coz it really sounds like human shrieking…..

you’ll never know till you hear it by yourself….

Hehehehehe….

Ow,and I’m hardly  working hardly to renovate my blog so it’ll look more pleasant an interesting to drop by…

And be the blog next door..heeeeee….

till then..

happy february guys!!!